The Journey with the Holy Spirit Part 1

 

It's interesting how always the Holy Spirit is working especially on the things we didn't even know we had...

"one wakes up in a light mood, clear in thoughts and just a few scenes, a familiar smell triggers old things that you didn't even know you had." 

So, most of the times because we no longer feel things... we think they are over but little do we know they are dormant not gone. 

Today I experienced something I usually heard from others but had never experienced before. I went somewhere and met this guy really smart, handsome and organized and he kind of showed interest In me and out of no where I felt angry deep down, bitterness covered me completely (which I don't even understand) because normally I'm not that kind of person... 

My inner voice was saying Hhhum, another scandal is coming... handsome guys hurts people or he is just messing with you or he want to see how desperate I am, he wants to use you for fun or he's just conversing you ... hopefully I managed to walk out of there safe but asked myself what had just happened there? 

His appearance, the smell of that place definitely triggered some memories that I thought I had deleted or forgotten... little did I know they were only dormant in me... I wasn't fully healed, It was just a matter of time before I get exposed with what was inside me. 

And I was like Holy Spirit gather here... what's going on with me? where's this coming from? I thought I was healed, I thought I was over it completely and he told me... that's what you thought and you just saw the reality for yourself that deep down there's still bitterness that needs to be healed, there's brokenness that you don't know you have yet it's still there waiting for the right time to reveal itself and if not uprooted... it will ruin a lot of things in the future.

 And I was like okay, so what's next... I need your help to get healed, remove completely this bitterness that's lying inside my heart because if it's still there I won't open my heart for any body out of fear which also doesn't come from God... 

Guys they used to say this and I couldn't understand how could a person have this bitterness, traumas and all these kinds of spirits yet they are not aware... and yeah, if you are asking yourself this question as I did just ask the Holy spirit to reveal what's inside you that's dormant not in a better way but waiting for the right time to destroy you. 

And trust me he will bring it to your knowledge... you will meet situations which will reveal that person/that nature you thought was dead and be able to deal with it intentionally. It might be unforgiveness, unresolved traumas, deception or other things that are unresolved. 

I asked the Holy Spirit to heal me and I think he's on it and I'm trusting the process because so far being able to identify the problem was the first process and I pray that you explore yourself too and get healed for the glory of God.

Be blessed, be healed and be made well!

Shalom!