My Life 365

  It's interesting how always the Holy Spirit is working especially on the things we didn't even know we had... "one wakes up in a light mood, clear in thoughts and just a few scenes, a familiar smell triggers old things that you didn't even know you had."  So, most of the times because we no longer feel things... we think they are over but little do we know they are dormant not gone.  Today I experienced something I usually heard from others but had never experienced before. I went somewhere and met this guy really smart, handsome and organized and he kind of showed interest In me and out of no where I felt angry deep down, bitterness covered me completely (which I don't even understand) because normally I'm not that kind of person...  My inner voice was saying Hhhum, another scandal is coming... handsome guys hurts people or he is just messing with you or he want to see how desperate I am, he wants to use you for fun or he's just conversing you ... h...

Back then while we were ending 2025 I sat with myself and looked back at what I achieved and in that moment I didn't see any grand thing that I achieved in 2025 aside from Graduation. It took me far because I went mad at myself wondering how could a year this long end like this... a lot on my annual list was unchecked. But a few days ago while I was preparing for my birthday... I looked back at the memories (Photos & videos) that I took for the past whole year and I realized I achieved a lot!  Only because most of them were not written in my annual target, the enemy tried to trick me to thinking I achieved less (God did less) ...  But now I'm grateful for what the Lord has done for me, my family and my friends (because we're in this together 😂), I'm grateful for my relationship with the lord, I learnt to hear his voice clearly and obey it (though it wasn't easy & I'm still on this journey 🤦), I'm grateful for all the people who came in my life the ...

This one will sound more like a song, a poem or an anonymous letter but you'll have to flow with it...   What they did to me, I'm doing the same to others... it's not like I'm intentional but somehow I find myself in the same spot... Leaving isn't what hurt me,  either way it could have failed but at least you could have said bye... Could have said why it couldn't work... I would have understood... I wasn't that desperate or unreasonable to hold you back when you wanted to go... but at least you should have said why it couldn't work. I really would have understood and let you go in peace and harmony. Maybe the reason I still hold on to you is the hope that you didn't leave completely... Maybe you're working on something once it's done you'll be back... I keep holding on some of our memories hoping one day you'll be back but still no glimpse of you... Now I understand why people who never said bye to their loved ones who are dead still...

Oh what a beautiful day! To praise and rejoice in the Lord! I woke up same hour, but I didn't go to jog because I had to wash my hair. It normally takes quite a time to make it fresh again but I had do it. Heard a sermon about allowing God to shake things up in our lives such that we be who we are in Christ. I prepared my self,  Had breakfast,  Went to take a bus, I went to work, And I'm dedicated to learn new things. This is my first learning activity on my list and I'm sorry if this text doesn't make sense I'm just exploring. See you next time!